blue toenails (all dressed up and nowhere to go) [575]

my plans for the holiday weekend have been altered.

i was supposed to see her, but that's not going down, now.

talk about *blaze of glory... the whole thing seemed to go up in flames.

i wondering what the future holds.

i talked to my mum about it this afternoon.

"i have to prepare myself for the possibility that there may not be anyone out there for me. it hurts to say it, it really does, but i need to make sure it doesn't take me by surprise."
"yeah... yeah, you're right."

mum sounded disappointed.

of course she does. no mother wants to know that their children are hurt, and nothing can be done to fix it.

of course it bothers me... it's a pretty grim assessment, but a possibility for which i need to prepare.

i've made my peace with it. i guess when you expect nothing, anything that happens is something great.

"it's not death if you refuse it... it is if you accept it."
-j. o'barr.

~^v*^v~
yuriy left below blackstar. the split was amicable, but now, we're charged with finding yet another member of the band.

teaching them the same six damn songs.

a year later, and still trying to figure shit out.

fuck.

~^v*v^~
ten weeks until seahawks.

fuck.

~^v*v^~




"i play for keeps 'cause i might not make it back..."